Saturday, November 14, 2009

Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times.

Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever.
This will teach you who your true friends are,
and the fine line between friendship and more.

Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect.
You will learn that no one is perfect,
and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve.

And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you.
This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.

And when you’re through with all that,
you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt,
and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.

But most of all,
you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined,
it is different to each person that experiences it.

And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth,
knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.

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i guess i've went through it all. (and maybe still going through it)
ruined a friendship,
was together with someone weirdly similar to me.

and am now,
learning about who i am, and who i want to be.

but this time,
no, it's not love,
if it's not mutual. :)

11:51:00 AM

Friday, November 13, 2009

it's over.

school is.

late night calls.
calls at 2am, that will only end at 5am,
because both of us will just fall asleep and either one will hang up when we wake up to go toilet.

and

you and me.

though..... although.

5:23:00 PM


I look into the window of my mind
Reflections of the fears I know I've left behind
I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same

What have you done today to make you feel proud?
It's never too late to try
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud?

Still so many answers I don't know
Realise that to question is how we grow
So I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same

What have you done today to make you feel proud?
It's never too late to try
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud?

We need a change
Do it today
I can feel my spirit rising
We need a change
So do it today
'Cause I can see a clear horizon

What have you done today to make you feel proud?
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?
'Cause you could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
What have you done today
You could be so many people?
Just make that break for freedom
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?

- proud by heather small.

9:49:00 AM


everything will clear up by itself today, i guess.

i shall not hold expectations.
i shall not pass judgements.

i shall just go wear my trainers and go for a nice jog.

niceeee.

actually not, i hate jogging.
but don't think that it's an option.

no, people don't need options.
having choices are bad.
you always miss good things out when you make a decision.
sacrifices need to be made.

i don't like knowing that i have pass such things up just because i choose to B, not A.

but then again,
deciding that i am not suppose to choose is a choice too.

i am weird. haha.

blame it on the lack of sleep.

but i really hope today turned out well,
or else i will never know how to deal with it.
and i won't want to learn it the hard way, i guess.

8:12:00 AM

Thursday, November 12, 2009

somehow i feel very insecure.

8:55:00 PM


how long will this last.

5:36:00 PM

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

think it's time to consider the options all over again.

11:47:00 PM


all these late nights and interrupted sleeps,
are kinda taking a toll on me.

physically, definitely.
mentally, sooner or later, i guess.

i know.
i can feel it.
the slowing down of systems.
even social ones.

everyone in the family knows about it.
3am, 4am, 8ams.
on and off.
off and on.
in and out, that kinda thing.

i think i need to find a balance.

i think i need to do something about it.

i think that;

i am just thinking but not going to do anything about it.

two more school days,
and i'm done with the academic year of 2009/2010.

i wonder how time heals when it's not stopping.

2:57:00 PM

Sunday, November 08, 2009

upset.

8:13:00 PM

Saturday, November 07, 2009

一个人眺望碧海和蓝天
在心里面那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝因为有限
我学着不去担心得太远
不计画太多反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天快乐地看每一天
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别
你的心有一道墙但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

11:27:00 AM

Friday, November 06, 2009

灯光也暗了
音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了
人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了
电话响起了
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了
是你变了
灯光熄灭了
音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了

3:26:00 AM


i think it just happened again.


wunderbar.

i want to go heidelberg.
i think i know how you feel exactly, kat jie.

1:57:00 AM