Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever.
This will teach you who your true friends are,
and the fine line between friendship and more.

Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect.
You will learn that no one is perfect,
and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve.

And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you.
This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.

And when you’re through with all that,
you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt,
and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.

But most of all,
you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined,
it is different to each person that experiences it.

And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth,
knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.

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i guess i've went through it all. (and maybe still going through it)
ruined a friendship,
was together with someone weirdly similar to me.

and am now,
learning about who i am, and who i want to be.

but this time,
no, it's not love,
if it's not mutual. :)

it's over.

school is.

late night calls.
calls at 2am, that will only end at 5am,
because both of us will just fall asleep and either one will hang up when we wake up to go toilet.

and

you and me.

though..... although.

I look into the window of my mind
Reflections of the fears I know I've left behind
I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same

What have you done today to make you feel proud?
It's never too late to try
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud?

Still so many answers I don't know
Realise that to question is how we grow
So I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same

What have you done today to make you feel proud?
It's never too late to try
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud?

We need a change
Do it today
I can feel my spirit rising
We need a change
So do it today
'Cause I can see a clear horizon

What have you done today to make you feel proud?
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?
'Cause you could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
What have you done today
You could be so many people?
Just make that break for freedom
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?

- proud by heather small.

everything will clear up by itself today, i guess.

i shall not hold expectations.
i shall not pass judgements.

i shall just go wear my trainers and go for a nice jog.

niceeee.

actually not, i hate jogging.
but don't think that it's an option.

no, people don't need options.
having choices are bad.
you always miss good things out when you make a decision.
sacrifices need to be made.

i don't like knowing that i have pass such things up just because i choose to B, not A.

but then again,
deciding that i am not suppose to choose is a choice too.

i am weird. haha.

blame it on the lack of sleep.

but i really hope today turned out well,
or else i will never know how to deal with it.
and i won't want to learn it the hard way, i guess.

somehow i feel very insecure.

how long will this last.

think it's time to consider the options all over again.

all these late nights and interrupted sleeps,
are kinda taking a toll on me.

physically, definitely.
mentally, sooner or later, i guess.

i know.
i can feel it.
the slowing down of systems.
even social ones.

everyone in the family knows about it.
3am, 4am, 8ams.
on and off.
off and on.
in and out, that kinda thing.

i think i need to find a balance.

i think i need to do something about it.

i think that;

i am just thinking but not going to do anything about it.

two more school days,
and i'm done with the academic year of 2009/2010.

i wonder how time heals when it's not stopping.

upset.

一个人眺望碧海和蓝天
在心里面那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝因为有限
我学着不去担心得太远
不计画太多反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天快乐地看每一天
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别
你的心有一道墙但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

我的心真的受伤了

i think it just happened again.


wunderbar.

i want to go heidelberg.
i think i know how you feel exactly, kat jie.