it's sunday!
i have kinda finished watching all the webcasts (one semester worth in 4 days)
first paper tomorrow.

not bearing much expectations for it,
cause it's just another elective;
(and i have two extra S/Us which i have no use for if i'm going heidelberg)
but i promised to get A,
so i guess i'll just have to put in more effort. heh.
MCQ only what; at least i know whose name to spell if i dont know how to do.
HAHA. (right, horrid tan?)

and it's sunday;
the dreadful sunday.
(good in the sense that it was a good lie, in the end. heh!)

the start of the paper + tummyache panic attack battles.

ah.
i'm starting to panic.
like NOW.

`Keith LSengPoh says:
haha
u follow blindly wif the prata smell?
lol
ure too hungry my girl
u can run low intensity for 30-45 min

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seng poh!
talking nonsense to me in the middle of the night.

which is good.
because the mind needs it.
else it wanders all over and enters the emo realm.

7 more lecture notes to go.
i will get my A.

for you, you, you, you and me. :)

on a side note,
i kinda hate to admit this,
but i...

(never mind)

keefe and his bear says:
lol
i used to like u alot u know
haha

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guess that was when i was tanner,
skinner and still wearing fbts to the central library,
looking for roller chairs. haha.

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my soulmate?

- if you're not the one.

it's wednesday!
mid-week!
time to start studying! :)

and yes, tonight,
me, amanda, jerlomes and hak are going to the esplanade to watch MAKSIM,
the piano prince.

yayness. :)

it was amanda's 22nd yesterday.
wasn't a lucky day for her. my bad, really.

met her up after the silly meeting at bukit timah campus.
i think i'll go there once to study or something,
cause it looks real cool? (but i think not, or else alison wont go arts lib to study every sem lah)
haha.

we went for a sushi lunch
(I LOVE SUSHI!)
and we decided that lousy movies are on this season, boring.
we headed to the library - good, it was packed. (bumped into her friend; mugging there)
the sun is out and blasting so we went ecp to cycle!
then i bumped into jackson - who was mugging with his gf at ecp's coffee bean.
so we cycled to changi village, against the dark clouds.
when we decided the dark clouds were too much for us to take - it started to drizzle.
we peddled like mad back?
(so much that my butt, thighs are aching now)
so much that amanda missed seeing that small drainage thing and fell,
scrapped her knee, dirtied her favourite top and landed on the flooded stoned ground.
urgh.

by the time we got back, we were soaked.
hopped onto a cab, went home,
bathed, dinner, and while she's mugging,
i was happily on the phone. :)

oh well,
the fun days are over.
gotta get down to business now i guess.
running out of time! haha.

and that 4am call was unexpected but nice,
you know?

and oh,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY again, my dear friend.
may whatever you wished for, come true.
(may you wish that i get 5As this sem, or something along that line. haha)

eno.
Bitter gourds.

Thanks.

the start of a new journey,
kinda,

just began.

i'm just starting with the man in the mirror.

it's a monday,
time to start doing what i was supposed to do since friday night.

it's a monday.
and my week just started with you in mind.

it's a monday.
6 days ago, it's a monday.
6 days later, it's a monday.

i guess mondays will never be the same without you.

brick by boring brick.

it's 2am.
and i'm still waiting...

patiently. :)

who needs the world when i got you?

just going to be,
just like that, i guess.

everything, everyone,
seem to be slipping away.

after so long,
i still don't understand why it is so hard to be together with someone you like.

i mean,
if it's mutual,
what's so hard.

i always thought that life can be simple and stuff.
but apparently, not.

just that i don't understand why.
why?

Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever.
This will teach you who your true friends are,
and the fine line between friendship and more.

Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect.
You will learn that no one is perfect,
and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve.

And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you.
This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.

And when you’re through with all that,
you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt,
and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.

But most of all,
you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined,
it is different to each person that experiences it.

And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth,
knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.

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i guess i've went through it all. (and maybe still going through it)
ruined a friendship,
was together with someone weirdly similar to me.

and am now,
learning about who i am, and who i want to be.

but this time,
no, it's not love,
if it's not mutual. :)